It don't upset me no more my pops don't text me no more I mean it ain't like someone I loved hasn't left me before I place my head on the floor I feel the changes that's coming at least the red tint to my eyes conceal the fear that I stomach what if I'm not enough all the feelings of being inadequate amplified by the fact that I'm passionate got me going in circles fighting depression and battles that haven't happened yet why do I sabotage my only attempts at happiness? Chorus: I'm lost why me? why does God despise me why am I only alive in my dreams Verse 2: I got this fucking feeling in my gut that I'mma die so don't ask me why I show up high to work my 9-5 I'm going through it and the only means I have to vent completely is through music but if i put too much into it average people won't consume it so I'm caught between a rock and trynna rock a fucking stage when the fuck did my escape become a cage? how the fuck I end up late to my own play? I feel the clock is ticking I can feel people I love, judging me on my addictions Chorus: I'm lost why me? why does God despise me why am I only alive in my dreams

if this is hell what the hell we got to lose? Verse 1: (Millz) The mood was set like leave-in perms word spread through the streets like germs I go so hard I might I die just so I leave on my terms I did my dirt down to the peat you sound like wash rinse and repeat don't watch me bitch watch my feet you see that Grayscale themed motif you that Cold stare in my eyes that's that wanderlust reprised that's that I don't give a fuck boy don't start lion (lyin) bout yo pride I can't even, in my prime I mean like 3,5,79 they count me out like every time now ain't that a paradigm now ain't that a pair of shoes half a size too small to fit but you ain't got no other kicks in other words ain't that a bitch life's a trip and I fall easy I been clumsy since conception she shoot me a look discreetly and my heart pump epinephrine I been in this bitch since breakfast and it's almost time for supper I been here with my protection, weapons, blessings and some rubbers so no matter how It go I got all my bases covered I told God to watch my 6 like Jay Cutler Chorus x3: (Millz) I know things ain't always what they seem other side ain't always green ego don't mean self esteem now that pride'll get you killed that trust will get you billed that lust won't get full filled verse 2: (F.O.O.L.I.S.H) As I cruise the waves of these lames blowing sea green haze thoughts come to play as I park at the gas station fast pacing cuz my last patient didn't have patience had a bad arrangement with somebody I trusted daily I know things ain't always what they seem baby but it seems you have a thing baby for a one man show no screen playing I don't swing on these occasions you don't want no egregious statements you better believe what I'm saying everything I do greatness having you is fate and all the hard work and dedication put into the mutilation of a made King King made King be contagious young niggas lead the nation you need to see the changes but it seems like what you see is a miscommunication didn't realize you was talking to one of the smoothest pimps playa play on

Verse 1: Don't get smoked yo. flow might cause emphezema real pimp shit living single like Kadija got the spot jumping like Blake Griffin over Kias one in a million like Aaliyah one in a million just like Django a lot more unchained tho a lot more unable to cash in on my halo they say all's well that ends well it must be swell I knew for a while I was going to hell Chorus: you don't wanna meet the things that go bump in the night that frighten me like depression and anxiety you don't wanna meet the monsters underneath my bed smoking bones with my skeletons you don't wanna meet the things that go bump in the night that frighten me like my depression and anxiety you don't wanna meet the monsters underneath my bed smoking bones with my skeletons Verse 2: this second verse is for my worst behavior say what I got to say and then rehearse it later with the perfect cadence tell me how do you stand still when the Earth is shaking how do you stay focused when the Earth is fading I put my life on the line like caller number nine I can hear them xannys calling I might hit decline I can hear them panties calling I might have to slide I might have dip in case she wanna probe my mind it's not for the faint of heart I paint all my murals in war paint bulid these walls up high I might need more paint I feel I need more of everything that I don't need drown my demons in more liquor and blow more trees Chorus: you don't wanna meet the things that go bump in the night that frighten me like depression and anxiety you don't wanna meet the monsters underneath my bed smoking bones with my skeletons you don't wanna meet the things that go bump in the night that frighten me like my depression and anxiety you don't wanna meet the monsters underneath my bed smoking bones with my skeletons Verse 3: I swear my closet like a gravesite hollow bones calling me in the late night Rose colored lenses make everything look like brake lights angel on my shoulder like "nigga what's yo faith like?" devil on my shoulder shoulder with the steak knife.... trying to take a piece of me trynna take my peace from me dreams of death coming in peacefully and releasing me cuz aint shit sweet but the swisher I'm own worse critic man it be your own niggas Chorus: you don't wanna meet the things that go bump in the night that frighten me like depression and anxiety you don't wanna meet the monsters underneath my bed smoking bones with my skeletons you don't wanna meet the things that go bump in the night that frighten me like my depression and anxiety you don't wanna meet the monsters underneath my bed smoking bones with my skeletons

Verse 1: Blunt ashing blunt passing ling spazzing tongue lashing two bad bitches that give tounge baths in snug satin eat cake I'm crumb snatching pussy left my dreads matted diva caught the snackdown table slamming chair smashing hair grabbing stare at it glare at it tear it give my all it's rare passion hide the shame in rare fabric but it still ain't give my life no real excitement it's just a couple vices Verse 2: I can tell that you're addicted I've watched you become this image you just like your father nigga you just took it farther than him you admit it's all been written you can't help but falling it might as well call all the homies get them all involved with in it you don't see what I see you are not alone and likely someone else that you're around is trying not to fall beside me just admit it that you need me I'll heal all your wounds discreetly you can keep me in your heart but you can't hide from or decieve me I'm your vices no advice can break the grip thats on your psyche so if they call you Superman I'll gladly be your kryptonite pop a pill I bet you will that molly burn your inner lip just turn up more, hit up a bitch and reap in all your benefits if life is short enjoy your high it's here for now unless you die and if you do before you strive your reputation's still alive they'll turn up in your name they'll drink more in your absence they'll do more drugs in your honor they'll tell stories bout your habits

Chorus (x1) I been too lost in my head I can't find my way I went too far astray while i'm on the fray But I'm okay If i die while still unheard And my best shit go unplayed Ugh please don't let my story go unpraised Or out weighed by the trouble on my mind I can't Be persuade Road to el dorado I repaved I been too lost in my head I cant find my way Road to el dorado I repaved [Verse 1 ] My nigga told me that's how God move My gut told me they can't lie to My mind told me i can't find The label told me i can't sign you My momma told me i can't bind you You got a light in your soul that shines through The one's that matter they don't mind you Keep your eyes up front and not behind you I tried the modest route they still boxed me out Battling self doubt the hook knocked me out If my last cig don't get me buzzed And this last blunt don't lift me up With this hateful bitch trynna get me loved Because I'm too dependent on a pick me up The disappointment crushed me like a dixie cup What an odyssey like Odysseus Chorus (x1) [Verse 2] What's the price of peace? Or at least piece Can i rent to buy? Or at least a lease Can i test drive it before i agree? Does it come w room so they can ride w me? I don't fit in well i need a higher seat As i acquire heat I need a fire beat I need a lighter please

I say what's up with you like I really didn't know I say what's up to the sky as I'm laying on the flo' Verse 1: I said what's up? shout out to gravity what's up like me at 5 in the morning writing actively? what's up like inverted down? what fun is the circus when you're the one who's the clown? tell me what's up with that jive talk? this is where I draw the line in fine chalk how you gone sign in and I ain't even sign off? burning L's from pages out of Mein Kompf this edge I'm on is way too high for me to climb off I guess I got to jump in to shit I've been avoiding like the bottom of a bottle or those therapist appointments tell me what's up with disorder in my makeup like Sephora my genetics been embedded I can't shake it like senora you going to love me or you'll hate me but it ain't no in between cuz if you're not sure if you fuck with me then please feel free to leave yeah I might just lose some sleep and write about you in a song and walk right past you in public like there ain't nothing wrong and say what's up wit ya? Chorus: I said WHADDUP tho? I said WHADDUP bro? I said WHADDUP ho? Verse 2: Can you feel me like the Braille? bumpy knuckles on my trail bumpy roads light up ahead but I burn rubber rub her tail rub it all up in your face but by God's grace I'm humbled man I'm such a fucking contradiction even I'm befuddled you should think on your rebuttal I turn stomping grounds to ruble I turn everything around me to a struggle I sent a text to God I'm waiting for the response I mean, we correspond a little but mostly I'm the one who talks tell me what's up with these dreams keeping me from gaining sleep keeping me from gazing in the mirror feeling like a king I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't so I say what's up to my woes with my chest full of smoke I say what's up to my crew I say what's up to the Moon I don't cross paths with the sun but I'll say what's up when we do I say what's up with you like I really didn't know I say what's up to the sky as I'm laying on the flo'

If all of our heroes gone die eventually and all of our memories fade into the dream scape of infinity why do I feel I limit me? why do I live so black and white and then go to sleep dreaming vividly? I don't know where's the symmetry drugs don't mix with Hennessy love don't mix with envy and love don't fix ya enemies so where does that leave little me? left to pull the string like the devil's fiddle it'll be a while before I wriggle free oak tree, I still got the stick sucka free I'm not the lick wrote it like a collumnist I swear this in all solemness play this on the top floor and wake up every occupant save all your applause til I accomplish it if common sense is so common then why is it even? I don't wanna exchange if it ain't that exclusive Cuz I been high for months on in, years gone by if there's one thing I've learned it's tears dry and I don't think I'm coming down any time soon